Today after we had walk and departed in the evening before dinner, I could sense silver lining of worries in your eyes. That is killing me inside. It’s making me rethink where I have failed to give what I have. After you shared that one of your classmates’ gestures might create situation which may not support your healthy friendly relation that is to prolong ahead, I was worried. You classmate act is not the one which made me worried but the impact that I often get to see in your ever smiling face due to such situation thrills my level of motivation. But still and no matter what ever happen to your daily life, I love you in the way I used to. I always want to see you smiling, satisfied and tension-free despite whatever situation you have to face. I also believe that such awkward situations, the moment of confusion regarding how to response or the fear of the unexpected consequences that might hurt the healthy friendly relation comes and go. I am relieved in one way that you share me your problem but sometimes I can’t help myself thinking about your worries.
Like in the morning, how you laugh and smiled (after watching the webcam video) was something I wished it would prolong forever. Seeing you sad-free always has been my choice. And personally i had always wanted to be a part of that blissful moment when you are in smiling like Lilly flower. I don’t know why i am being too possessive towards you. I mean besides being a close companion to me, you have your own friend circle, you family life to cherish, you classmates to hang on. They are your space which I should never encroach. But my selfish desire is to observe you tense free and easy going in that space also. I should always respect your space and your interest. The space between you and me is always secured, that I want you to know.
With the moving time, my level of possessive feeling towards you has sharply grown. I don’t know whether it is natural or not but i think it is the time itself that will assist me to handle situations and help me getting on with you easily. You can’t imagine how lonely I was before you stepped in my life. Even I felt that warmness and togetherness only after I was with you. Before arrival, i used to boast myself as a “bindass” guy who have nothing to take and nothing to give. But I was wrong. Your presence has made me realize that I was incomplete without your companion. I don’t know whether I am complete or not but as a human my being with you has helped me to cope with most of the lingering issues in my life. A sense of security, optimum level of optimism and warmth of togetherness are some of them I achieved after being with you. I just want to see you smiling and feel secured about everything that has been invited after our togetherness. You study, your space and you problem facing ability should boost up rather than being down. It would be my privilege to be part of everything that create wink in your face and feel contended with whatever (favorable or unfavorable) happenings in your life. I want to be one of the many well-wishers that you can notice. Nothing more to say. I just love you. I love you perhaps that “love” things was always there between you and me. The time has made me realize it and confess it to you. I just want to be with you not necessarily in geographical proximity but in our sense of togetherness which I hope will flourish like ever spreading cloud during monsoon in the sky.
(Here are more flowers for you…..)
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